Do you ever just feel just completely saddened by everything around you? Like just one glimpse of even a lead on the ground can just lead you into a world of thoughts, dwelling on what could of been and how things are now. It's honestly one of the worst feelings someone could ever have. Emotional pain hurts more than any broken bone, and I feel as if I go through this every single day of my life. Not a day goes by where I don't relive the past and how things used to be, when I should be focused on how things are going to be. I guess easier said than done right? We're all supposed to just get a job, get married, and live our American Dream. But what the actual fuck does that even mean? Take after my family, who work 9-5s, have a house, and strictly pay bills and pray for retirement? No. That's not a fucking dream, it's a nightmare. Why am I going to sit around sad, lonely and depressed about all of these things that I don't want to do when I'm 21 and able to do them? It's kind of just the actual philosophy of life I guess. We're to die. Nothing more. So who's to say that we have to deal with the constant remnants of stress and a dead end job? It's time to just live life, and if you do not want to be a part of mine or think I'm fucking crazy, then leave now, no one needs your negativity. But for most others, I believe that we can improve the sadness, anger and pain by living this type of way. Let's live for the unexpected. Makes it kind of interesting.
