@ahaharukard OKAY so basically I fell in love with the idea of Suzaku before you really get to know him? He's kind and chivalrous and takes a lot of shit from other people just by existing and keeps smiling; he's heroic, and willing to sacrifice for others, and basically NOT THAT DISSIMILAR from Syaoran (in Tsubasa specifically). It certainly helped that he was drawn similarly? But then of course you find out that all these 'good' traits are actually motivated by him being a mental wreck/passively suicidal and thus he's incredibly selfish and that he's so mentally fucked up over everything that he does horrible things to Lelouch and everyone else and honestly that made me outright STOP WATCHING THE SERIES for a long time? I went back to finish the first season about a month after it ended and I was less angry at Suzaku for turning out to be a big selfish douche. Didn't watch R2 until @alabaster_heart showed it to me and by then I was still wrecked over him but I was no longer horribly betrayed by how screwed up he is, haha. So in short no he's not like Syaoran but at first I thought he was so I was really disappoint when he wasn't :(