During the day, it's largely manageable, I'm maybe even hopeful, as I go about my work and duties, meeting people and all.
At night is when it all manifests and starts to eat me up inside-out.
I fear, not knowing what is ahead or where I should even go.
I retire, not having the energy to do very much. Every little thing takes too much effort.
I read, because it calms me down and makes me feel like I have a silent companion by my side.